Sunday, January 18, 2015

A641.1.3.RB _PALUGODCAROLYN



I’m not sure at what point in my life I started to listen.  Growing up my behavior was always self-destructive and I found it difficult to listen to people and take advice.  It seemed I was always either on the defensive or on attack mode.  Now, looking back, I realize that this was all brought on by my low self-esteem and lack of self -confidence.  I believe that personal growth started for me when I began to listen to others as well as listen to myself.  When I was able to crawl out of the self-preserved cocoon that I had built, I realized that people were not yelling and criticizing me all the time like I thought.  They were actually trying to teach me.  I think the first lesson when trying to develop and sustain change in your life is that you have to listen.  This brings me to my first big “a-ha” moment.  When I first met Polly, my Reiki instructor and mentor, I was severely depressed.  In fact, I went to her for a healing session because a friend of mine recommended her.  I remember lying on her table while she laid her hands on my body and “activated” my chakras.  At the time, I had no concept of the energetic being that I was.  I had no idea that my body was made up of more than just the physical sensations that I could feel with my human senses.  I wasn’t aware of the power of my intuition.  And neither was I aware of how, years to come, my intuition would be a part of the foundation of my personal growth and journey.  This was my first lesson in “listening”.  Polly taught me to listen to myself and trust my instincts.  Whereas before, when my instincts kicked-in, I would run like a bat out of hell in the opposite direction, I learned to be mindful of my thoughts, feelings and intuitive feelings and use them to think more critically.  This helped me to make better decisions and also improved how I related to other people.

Nora Vimala, my yoga instructor, was another mentor and what I like to think of as a life coach.  Under her guidance I learned the concepts of “mindfulness” and “meditation”.  Although Nora was far from being a traditional business leader, her teachings and relentless observance of living a “mindful” existence increased and shaped my emotional intelligence.  In fact, one study conducted by researchers demonstrated that there was a positive connection between the practice of yoga and the enhancement of emotional intelligence (Adhia, Nagendra, & Mahadevan, 2010), At the time, I was undergoing a complete personal transformation and trying to heal my emotional wounds.  Nora took me on a journey within and helped me see who I was with all my strengths and weaknesses, or as McKee, Boyatzis, & Johnston (2008) labeled the Real Self.  Once you know who you are and where you are, with the guidance of a resonant leader, it is easy to follow the path towards where you want to be and become your Ideal Self (McKee, Boyatzis, & Johnston, 2008).  During my training with Nora, I was unaware that she was leading me through what McKee et al. (2008) describe as the process of Intentional Change.  Through this transformative process I learned and experimented with new behaviors, creating new and positive habits.  I believe that I was able to sustain these changes in my life because the environment that Nora created for us was safe and felt free of judgments (McKee et al., 2008).   These teachings later would be another building block for my professional transformation and I would learn to apply them to my work.

Although I feel that I am still a work in progress, I have realized that my emotional intelligence has increased over the years because of resonant leaders such as Polly and Nora.  The ability to identify my emotions, put them into perspective, manage them has all made it easier for me to build trusting and integral relationships with people (Boyatzis & McKee, 2005).  I feel since I’ve gone through the process myself of intentional change and it has made me more empathetic to others who I wish to lead.  In fact, my own personal journey, which includes all my successes and failures, makes me a stronger and more compassionate person when it comes to leading groups of people and motivating them towards a common goal.

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