Sunday, February 8, 2015

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I had a difficult time trying to identify a “tipping point” in my professional life.  The biggest challenge I have with identifying my own tipping points is first trying to define “tipping point”.  Boyatzis tells us in his video that we reach a culminating peak of emotion and then the tipping point happens when we bring the intensity down (olawale riceco fanfaronado, 2013).  He also tells us that the tipping point is an experience in our life that pushes us into a state of excellence; something like an “a-ha” moment.  Another example he gives is the positivity ratio which states that for every one negative emotion or behavior we must express three positive ones to balance it out. Author Malcom Gladwell wrote a book called The Tipping Point.  In his book he describes the tipping point as “that magic moment when an idea, trend, or social behavior crosses a threshold, tips, and spreads like wildfire” (Gladwell.com, n.d.).  My favorite definition was found on the WhatIs.com website.  Here it is defined as “the critical point in an evolving situation that leads to a new and irreversible development” ("Tipping point, n.d."). 

 Based on this definition, I can recall a turn of events at my job that probably defined my biggest tipping point.  My job can be very stressful.  There are a lot of demands put upon us as well as stringent deadlines.  My director and I are a two man team and together we run two sites.  Needless to say, we have to run a very seamless tight ship.  For the first year together there were some growing pains as we got to know each other and discovered each others strengths and weaknesses.  After about a year and a half we had a falling out.  There was a huge misunderstanding and our relationship hit a dead end.  We no longer trusted and confided in each other and there was some bitterness and resentment on my end and probably on her end as well.  We continued to work together but our interactions were frigid.  Dissonance began clouding our office and we were both miserable.  I was depressed and unhappy and sometimes even cried on Sundays because I did not want to go to work the next day.  My job performance suffered and I was having trouble staying on task.  The stress of our job responsibilities mixed with the stress created by our strained relationship heightened the level of stress in the office.  I am a very empathetic person and am very sensitive to other people’s emotions.  If I sense a person is not happy with me or is feeling negatively towards me, I become very upset and will ruminate over these thoughts over and over again.  Boyatzis and McKee (2005) tell us how chronic stress affects our brain function and capacity to learn.  They explain that “as a result of this activity, we begin to feel more anxious, nervous, stressed, or even depressed.  In this agitated state, we have an increased tendency to feel we are losing control and to perceive things that people say or do as threatening or negative” (Boyatzis & McKee, 2005, p. 43).

I believe that my director and I reached a tipping point together.  I think the stress and negative energy had reached a boiling point.   Amazingly, we both somehow reached a common awareness of the situation.  I believe we both were ready to take steps towards renewal.   I think the culminating stress along with the confinement of working so closely together forced us to an awareness and acceptance of not only our weaknesses, but our strengths.  My director’s self-control and level of emotional intelligence during this precarious time for us was very inspiring to me and made me realize and want to emanate that same behavior.  Boyatzis discussed in his video that a tipping point can be reached when an individual makes such an impact in our life that it tips us into a mode of improved performance (olawale riĉeco fanfaronado, 2013).  We become a better version of ourselves.  Despite the issues that impacted us negatively, I realized that her leadership qualities were admirable.  Bennis and Thomas describe these significant events as “crucibles” which are “transformative experience through which an individual comes to a new or an altered sense of identity” (Toor & Ofori, 2008, p. 215).

My director and I now are involved in a synergistic and resonant relationship.  We have found an amazing balance where we tap into each other’s strengths and skills in a way that has made our campus as efficient as ever.  I have accepted my weaknesses and recognize my defensive routines and try to avoid negatively engaging in them.  In turn, I allow her to help me and accept her feedback as sincere counsel and not criticism.   I have become more emotionally intelligent. 


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